notes on a situationship

I have been careless with another being. I fear I might’ve gotten myself in trouble. How could someone kiss with such starvation someone they’ve only known from a distance. Is there such a thing as being deeply connected in soul from afar? May I need to understand a being to feel deeply for them? I have been navigating this theme in romance, in our day. When does it stop feeling meaningless and does it ever?

I see him dimly, I see him only in the dark. I long to understand yet don’t wish to seek such answer. Never had anyone possessed such ability to kiss me with divine hunger, must it be in your nature? Consuming me, swallowing me whole. Cannibalistic rather than animalistic. What happens when you’re both incapable of making that step but yet are willing to try? My legs over yours in a deep staring contest, unprovoked thoughts not being spoken aloud. What are you thinking when you say there is no thought? Is daylight forbidden? Is the sneaking around part of the intensity of feeling? I’m left with uncertain ideas of what anything could mean, my curiosity peaks. My lack of preparation keeps me avid in the engagement.

The mystery hooks me but do you feel that? Or is it all about lust? Is it all sensory or is there a sudden connection? Could it be both with no future, are we wasting time or is the fun worth the temptation of questioning?